What a Month

I'm a mess!  I've never pretended to be otherwise.  But honestly, how could I not be right?

AND.....

What makes it worse is my personality and my nature and my need to have some sort of control over some aspects of my life create chaos where chaos doesn't need to be.

So the irony of the situation is this... In my attempt to make things easy and smooth, I make things stressful and  hard.

Let me break down the past six weeks of our unbelievably complicated life made more complicated by yours truly.  (Or if I'm being totally honest, how it was a flawless experience because we are supposed to be here and Heavenly Father guided our every move.)

The following story is a testimony of faith, belief in our Heavenly Father's love for us and moving your feet to get what you want out of your life.)

June 20th     Raleigh comes home and says there is a job down in St. George that he is going to apply for.  It doesn't open until the end of July, but he thinks he will get it.  I start crying.  How can we move?  Brayden is a senior this year.  We own our home.  We have 7 children.  We have 17 rooms that are full of furniture and stuff.  We have jobs HERE.  And the list and the crying went on and on.  He gives me two very compelling reason for us to get the heck out of Northern Utah that I could not argue with and so...

June 21st     I put in two resumes at two companies because I only had six weeks to find a job.

June 22nd     I get a call from one of the companies

June 23rd     I have a phone interview

June 25th     I have another phone interview

June 29th     They call and offer me the job  (sight unseen, good thing for them I'm not covered in warts)

AND I ACCEPTED IT!    See,  I'm a mess!!  What am I doing?  Raleigh hasn't even interviewed yet.

July 2-6th     I come down to St. George for a week to train at my new job, while I am still employed with Best Buy.  And the worst part is... I LOVED it.  It is my dream job.  And I am so sad all week long because I can't fully enjoy it.  And can't start loving the people.  I can't feel excited about setting up my office.  Every time I learn a new aspect or grasp a concept, I can't even feel victorious because I'm not completely sure I'm coming back.

Also, while we are in St. George training, I start looking for houses.  I find one.  It's big!!  It's gorgeous!! And I want to live there.  I fill out all the paperwork and pay a LARGE down payment.  See, Nutso!!  Raleigh doesn't have the job.

July 7th     I return to work at Best Buy for the next two weeks.  I wanted to put in my two weeks notice, but MY HUSBAND HASN'T EVEN APPLIED YET!!!  See Crazy.  So, I work as if nothing is weird, pretending that I'm not leaving for good in two weeks (fingers crossed).  Pretending that I'm not going to leave them high and dry.  I'm the only one in the whole store who knows how to do my job,  I'm the only one who knows how to do what I do.

July 16th     We meet the old owners of our new home and sign all the paperwork in the bleachers of the ball field at Raleigh's softball game.  Keep in mind, Raleigh does not have a job in St. George.

July 18th     I have the kids transcripts sent to various St. George schools, cancel upcoming doctor's appointments, make Morgan an appointment at a St. George Orthodontist.

July 19th    Raleigh works all day.  Leaves from work to drive down to St. George.  Interviews late that night.  Spends the night at my parents house and after filling his belly with Nana's famous Belgian Waffles drives back home.

July 20th     The WHOLE family...  I mean the whole family is on pins and needles.  We were all fasting.  We don't know what to do with ourselves, so we just walked around the house looking at each other.  The kids were sitting on my bed when he walked in...  "No news yet, family"  he says as he walks in the room.  And our hearts sank.

At 2:00pm     Raleigh is offered the position.  And we all breathe a sigh of relief and immediately begin packing.  The house was packed and cleaned by Sunday morning.

July 22nd     I leave with Morgan, Peyton and Ryker and have a blowout.  (Refer to two posts back).  My dad comes to rescue us at the Nephi Wendy's.  We arrive in St. George at midnight.

July 23rd     I report back to my dream job for week #2 of training at 7:00am

July 26th     Raleigh and the rest of the kids join us with TWO U-haul trucks filled to the end with all of our belongings.

Here is Raleigh arriving with the second truck

Did I need to apply for a job six weeks before I knew if Raleigh really had the job?  NO.  But, I'm glad I did.  Should I have started looking for a house AND paid money for it a month before Raleigh even interviewed?  NO.  But, I'm glad I did.  Did I need to pace back and forth, praying every 2 minutes for a 48 hour period while Raleigh interviewed?  NO.  He nailed that interview.  Should I be taking any credit for any of this?  NOPE.  I had nothing to do with any of it.  Who finds a job in 2 days,  a house in 1 day and has every single aspect fall perfectly into place without divine help?  NO ONE.  Certainly not me.

So happy to be together

Just before we started to unload

Are we supposed to be here?  There is not one doubt in my mind.  Our house is fabulous.  Our ward is unbelievable.  Since we have been here we have had more visits from ward members than we did the entire time we lived in Eagle Mountain

My HUGE master bathroom

The only room that is kind of decorated

The girls have a gigantic, fenced in backyard with a jungle gym and a fish pond and grass to run on and they stay inside. 

Am I happy it's over?  YES.  Because I was a wreck for over a month.  Would I do it the same way again?  Every day of the week and twice on Sunday.  Because I have never had a more powerful lesson in faith and trust.  I have learned that in order to receive blessings sometimes you need to do all the work and let the Lord put the pieces into place.

And he will.  And then you know without a shadow of a doubt that he loves you and knows what you need to make your lives better.  Pheeeeeeeewwwwwwwww!!!